Life is a journey

So it is official...i have not posted in over a month.  To be honest, i have a ton of excuses but the truth is i am just lazy.  So lately my thought process has been thinking about the journey of life (cheesy I know, but i swear it will be good).  My parents are divorced and now they are both empty nesters, rediscovering who they are and their life.  My mom has sold my childhood home and relocated to a small cottage on the water in annapolis (we refer to the house as the shack).  I was there this weekend and it is quite a beautiful place to watch the sunset and to just enjoy God in all his glory.  My dad, the sailing man, left yesterday to sail by himself to Florida.  I was laughing to myself saturday as I said goodbye to my dad (for awhile) and then left my moms house.  They got a divorce because they fought all the time and seemed to have nothing in common.  Yet when all the crazyness of a day is done they both find themselves on the water enjoying the same sunset thousands and thousands of miles apart.  Life is funny like that.  It is as if you think you know what is best for you and you think your plan is so much better then any other, yet really our thoughts and our plans are nothing.

dad on his boat

view from my moms cottage

sunset at the cottage

I have been really trying to enjoy the lord in every moment of everyday.  I have been studying what that means and looking at my heart and how this all works together.  What does it even mean to enjoy the Lord when all you know around you is not joyful but rather heartache?  I have been reminded recently of the vulnerability and boldness I used to have consistently in my ministry.  I would go to the ends of the earth just to have a high school kid hear about Christ.  Over the years it seems as though I have become numb to that passion and desire.  It is as if I expect pain to come.  The more and more I have realized this I have begun to realize how little and helpless I really am.  As inadequate as I feel, God has still chosen to use me.  How can I not enjoy the simple fact that is in that.  Although we are human and contain nothing good on our own, God still uses us all daily.  Now if that is not something to seek Christ daily and enjoy him I don't know what is.
On another note...recently I have been feeling as though I need a break.  I have not had all that much to do but for some reason I have been feeling like I need rest.  The funny part of this feeling is that every time I go somewhere to rest I end up having a conversation about Young Life or Christ.  Funny how God works in that way.  The resounding gong of my life is Christ saying over and over again...rest in ME, not yourself, not a movie, not the couch....just Me.

Enjoy a few pictures over the last few weeks....